Tuesday, January 30, 2007

We all need a little help...

I have been feeling overwhelmed. Like I am working as hard as I can, but nothing is good enough. Like there isn't enough time in the day to do everything that needs to be done. Like I have no support. Scott had been working a lot, weekends too. Last week I had a night out with friends planned. I had planned it a month ago and was looking forward to it. Our babysitter was sick and Scott couldn't get home. I cried on the phone when he told me. It seems so stupid now, but I just felt like everyone else's commitments are more important than mine. This weekend I was sick and Scott had to work. I lay in bed and he says "are you going to be able to get up?" And I replied "I don't have a choice". The car battery died twice in a week and I had to call someone to help me. And now I have to take it and the two kids to get it fixed. I am just tired. I guess I am feeling sorry for myself. I know it will get better...

12 comments:

Recovering Wino said...

You need a break...nobody can keep going like that and not get stressed and depressed. Can you get away for awhile? Seriously..you have got to get some time to yourself.

You're not feeling sorry for yourself. I worry about you!!

Ninotchka said...

Ugh. I hate it when stuff like this happens. Feels like the whole world is coming down on you. I'm reading a book right now and in one of the "reflections" she talks about how when you're on a plane, you're instructed to place the oxygen mask on yourself FIRST before you aid someone else in the event of an emergency. It makes total sense but as mothers we just don't put ourselves often enough, if at all. No wonder we're so frequently left "gasping for air." Hope things ease up for you, sweetie. :::hugs:::

Space Mom said...

Oh no!

You do need a night out. I hope you feel better physically and that you get some "me" time to get some fresh air and some new life your yourself...

I am thinking about you!

Kylie's momma said...

Hang in there Lisa! We all deserve a pity party once in awhile. So cry it all out...it does help! So sorry things are sliding on you. I know what you mean and I only have one rugrat to lug around. It's tough being mom and doing EVERYTHING for EVERYONE else! Sure wish I lived closer to give you a leg up. So sending you GREAT BIG HUUUUGS from MT!
Love Susan

Jodie said...

I know how you feel. My hubby works A LOT too. Us Moms, are the GLUE that holds the whole family together and nobody else can really do what we do on a daily basis! All the nitty gritty stuff adds up and we all need a break. You're allowed to feel sorry for yourself, you work HARD, woman!(Remember to give this pep talk to me down the road...) Hope you feel better soon. :)

Kristin said...

Unfortunately, there are those times when it is all just so overwhelming and feels so negative...

When Scott gets home tonight escape to a movie or the bookstore or just a coffee shop... give yourself some breathing room.

((hugs))

Donna said...

Lisa, I sure do know how you feel! My husband traveled to Atlanta a week ago (for four days) then came home and had to work late nights for the rest of the week. I felt like crawling under a rock and never coming out!

:::hugs:::

Donna

Joannah said...

That's a lot on your shoulders. I hope you get a break soon.

Michelle said...

As you well know, a wee bit o' depression is going around here too. Must be a twin thing. Or maybe winter. I don't know, but it sucks. Just think in three weeks you'll be visiting me, and get three whole days to yourself! Without kids! Maybe it's time for another bloggy get together!

P.S. I sent you some prezzies in the mail and they should be arriving tomorrow. Hopefully that will cheer you up some.

M3 (Mary-Mia) said...

It doesn't sound like you're feeling sorry for yourself, it sounds like things are TOUGH right now. Sending you huge hugs.

I know it's not a long-term cure, but we could plan another mom's night out if you're up for it? I could get a hall-pass if my parents were around to babysit.

Stephanie said...

Sounds like you need some "me" time. Don't feel guilty - as a mother (or parent for that matter) we need to take a break from the little ones once in a while. If not, we might all end up in an asylum. Reschedule that girls night out (or better, try to make a day of it).

Anonymous said...

Am a lurker, but showing my "face" o n this one. Almost a year from now we adopted our little girl from China, it's been great. But the amount of germs she brings home from day care, add to that the amount I am bombarded with from teaching at a high school. Since January we have been sick with one thing or another, most recently I have been battling a cold, my daughter is sick, my husband had surgery leaving him out for the next two weeks so I am essentially "single parenting "two" kids, i have to continue teaching, and I am completely worn to the bone. Last night I finally sat down to what I thought was my glass of water only to find that it was in the hands of my husband. I was so completely offended when I normally wouldn't have been. All I wanted at the end of the day was just a nice cold glass of water and to that I had to get up *again* to get one.

Hang in there. Misery loves company and I am sending you some positive vibes.

christina